Segment 15 – between 5:00 and 6:00
I did not like the last segment that I wrote, segment 14. That was the me of yesterday though, today I am a new me – almost an entirely different person (try waking up as early as 4:45 in the morning and not being a completely different person). There will naturally be segments that form from this writing that I enjoy[1], and similarly, there will also form segments that I do not enjoy reading again[2]. Counterintuitively some of the segments I felt worst about during the writing process are some of my favourites so far, while others that I was in a cheery mood for turned out worse than I would have expected. These outcomes are justified quite simply if we keep in mind the overarching purpose to this exploration – the process of self-aware writing, the act itself. Noticing what forms – the rereading of segments, again and again, will continuously net out new interactions, new interpretations, that is unavoidable. But underneath, our infrastructure has been set with quick drying cement, drying in hourly intervals, foundations complete within 24 hours/days.
- Record player jam.
And so, even though I did not like segment 14 much yesterday, I find myself rereading, reinterpreting, and reappreciating what I wrote. This may be different tomorrow (now I begin to wonder why I have used footnotes to link the segments that I like and those that I do not, as this will necessarily change, oh well).
The time has flown recently, it always seems to be speeding up. There is only so much noticing of its passing that one can do before the noticing replaces time itself. That would be unenjoyable and highly bureaucratic. Let us not dilly, let us not dally, the next hourly train is leaving the station. Although I am not allowed to remain here, on Segment 15, I shall revisit, and I shall bring my freshly gouged eyes with me. Hopefully it will be a good experience.
Stoic.
[1] Segment 7, Segment 13, (Segment 19 later) others.
[2] Segment 14, others.